"It is not the end of the world" or "everything happens for a reason"

I'm a psychologist or a prospective psychologist. I have an understanding of human behaviour, emotions, reactions, life struggles, death, birth, loss of the loved ones and the list goes on...

However knowing doesn't make it any easier for me to overcome what I'm going through...
It is like having lots of people around me playing prerecorded voice mails over and over again to me and saying it is not the end of the world.

well! I KNOW IT IS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD!!!!!

and now almost everyone is saying to me this wasn't what I really wanted in the beginning, even it wasn't, it does not change the fact that I wanted in the end. I had it in the end. And then some red type rule came along...

I'm angry! I'm angry at people for taking it away from me. I'm angry at the university to not to look through every detail of this before offering me the position. I'm angry at myself for believing that I was lucky and finally I was going to do what I really wanted to do.. I am angry at my self for leaving my job, I'm angry at myself believing that I have rights! I'm angry at my parents! I'm angry at karma! I'm angry at God! I'm angry that the relief is not easy for me! I'm angry at who ever came up with these laws! I'm angry at my housemates for playing so loud music! I'm angry at the world for not having enough distractions to keep me busy! I'm angry because I'm broke! I'm angry because I'm mature enough to not to hide behind other things and create other dramas! I'm angry because I'm alone!

why does it have to be such a war for some people where as it comes really easy to some people...
Can't I have some?

there are worse problems people are going through in their lives. I'm not ignoring them and putting mine on the top of what the world is going through but the thing is life is an individual battle. I wasn't dreaming of anything, I wasn't having any expectations from life at all... I was just keeping on and putting the kettle on every day after work.. that was the way it was supposed to be.. A fairy tale was meant to happen but I didn't have a fairy god mother !

Have you ever regretted who you are? Well, I am! I regret I studied psychology, I regret I had high expectations from myself!

I don't envy anyone... For some I was born with privileges, I was a part of two cultures, two languages, two nations... I will tell you.. I have nothing... I don't even know where I belong... I don't look like either nationalities, I resemble both...I have no rights where I live right now, even though people are coming here because they have rights... and I don't think it doesn't even matter if I had rights in the other country because they are meant to be disregarded.


So my problem is not the fact that something is taken away from me.. well 40 percent it is, my problem is, it is taken away from me whether I had rights or not... or my rights doesn't count... actually I have no rights. An immigrant have more rights than me, an EU citizen have more rights than me, a turkish cypriot has more rights than me!
my problem sucks!